I'm afraid of graduating and looking for a job and living on my own.
I'm afraid of leaving the comfort zone of school or a job that's just getting me through.
I'm terrified that I'm not good enough or that I'll be alone forever.
I'm afraid of Satan, and his grip on me lately.
I'm afraid that God is disappointed, even though I know that it doesn't matter anyways because He loves me no matter what.
I'm afraid that I'll let people down if I do what I want to do in my life.
I'm afraid that my family will judge me and assume and basically talk stupid if I fail at anything I want to achieve.
I don't want to hear, "I told you so" or "I just knew that wasn't going to work out" or "Well, that was a tough career choice anyway"
I just want to live my life the way I want to live it, but I am afraid that my fear is holding me back.
I need to move forward.
I just need to figure out the best way to do that.
And then do it.
If I figure it out, I'll let you know.
Try not to let fear get in your way Amanda. Your career is a big decision that no one else can make for you. The most important thing is that you are passionate about whatever you choose, even if it is a hard career choice. I do not have to work your job for you and neither does anyone else. So don't worry about what you fear we might all think.....all I ever think is that I love you and want you happy in life. <3 You make me proud not because of career choices, you make me proud because of who you are as a person. I love you.
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